Is this Transcending, or the Beginning of Schizophrenia?

I actually ask myself that question a lot…a lot my friends.  Once, I even got brave enough to ask my Male Christian Counselor that I really did trust and respect, that very same question.  I think at first he thought I was kidding, then he look in my eyes and went.. Ohh.  Out came the questionnaire.

People with schizophrenia have at least some of its main symptoms. For a psychiatrist to make a confident schizophrenia diagnosis, some of these symptoms must be present:

-Hallucinations. This means hearing voices or other sounds that aren’t there or seeing things that don’t exist.
-Delusions (unshakeable beliefs that aren’t true).
-Disorganized speech and behavior (talking and acting strangely).
-Lack of motivation and emotional expression.
-Lack of energy.
-Poor grooming habits.
-Specific types of psychotic symptoms (called first-rank symptoms), when present, make a schizophrenia diagnosis more likely:
-Hearing your own thoughts spoken aloud.
-Feeling that thoughts are being inserted into your mind, or removed from it, by an outside force.
-Feeling like other people can read your mind.
-Feeling that an outside force is making you feel something, want something, or act in a certain way.
-Hearing voices discuss you or argue about you.
-Hearing voices narrate your actions as you perform them.
A person with schizophrenia may describe these symptoms openly. Or a psychiatrist may deduce they are likely present based on observations of a person’s speech and behavior

So together the Counselor and I figured out that I was not schizophrenic……right?? so why was I feeling a bit crazy, and why did it feel so freeing? and so damn scary all  at the same time?

This girl let go of years of guilt and shame….just let it go…just like that, and breathed.  Wow it was so freeing so beautiful, like a million pounds lifted off her body. A feeling like none other, none other


Published by Tina Sun Henderson

I am a Writer, Artist and Human Rights Advocate. I also have a dream about this project. I wanted to hear the voices of my Sisters. Their Voices speaking truth to power, her stories and dreams, and nightmares that she needs/must express.  “A strong woman stands up for herself. A stronger woman stands up for everybody else.” – Unknown

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